Stressed out....

That is what most aptly describes me now!

Was sick since the Deepavali PH all the way till monday, so I had a 5 day long break. I'm thinking if it's all psychosomatic because I'm feeling stressed. Lately, thoughts of quitting kept swimming in my head. Guess I'm trying to escape again...

Did I make the right decision about my work? What if I don't do the job well? I'm beginning to dread going to work...but I've just made a commitment. I could back out now since things are not finalised yet, but I guess that won't be fair.

Been feeling so disorganized and so out of touch with so many things! Just hope this phase will pass quickly...and what's worse is that in times like these, I feel the least like praying when I really need it most!

Really wish I could just run away from it all, but guess I can't. The good thing though is that I did have a good and enjoyable time at home yesterday and I found a song which spoke to me and I know God is telling me to go on...rely on Him and not me and walk this road by faith.

Had this song on my playlist all this while, but never found it so beautiful before:

祷告 因为我渺小

祷告 因为我知道我需要

明了 祢心意对我重要

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祷告 已假装不了

祷告 因为祢的爱我需要

祢关怀 我走过的祢都明白

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有些事我只想要对祢说

因祢比任何人都爱我

痛苦从眼中流下

我知道祢为我擦

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在早晨我也要来对祢说

主耶稣今天我为祢活

所需要的力量祢天天赐给我

祢恩典够我用

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I feel that's the most beautiful song I've heard since a long time...